Every time I turn around I see a pregnant woman. I know a lot of that has to do with the fact that we are in South America and having big families is part of the culture but even back home, it seems like EVERYONE is pregnant. It makes me constantly ask the question, "is everyone pregnant but me" or "will my time ever come to be a mother". While seeing or hearing of a pregnancy is always a joyful moment, sometimes I feel like a piece of me dies every time. Don't get me wrong, I am still happy for all those pregnant mommas out there, I just wish I could be one of them and it terrifies me thinking that i might never be. I just don't understand how soooo many women get pregnant without wanting to and without trying and then so many of the ones who want it so bad try and try with no success.
Oh well, I just needed to vent a little. Thanks for listening.