On Courage | pt 2

 

Sakura Bloom Sling Diaries Audition

 

 

To the boy that made me a mother,

 

From the moment I learned I was pregnant with you I knew that we were just meant to be. You rocked my world and introduced me to a love that I didn’t even know existed. Our souls were instantly connected as I fell madly in love with you with each stretch, kick and hiccup. With each passing day I eagerly anticipated the moment you would go from being a tiny person whose heart seemingly beat as one with my own, to a separate life in my arms who would be able to take in the world with his own fresh eyes. No longer shielded from the world by my own body, you would soon learn what it was like to feel emotions – good and bad. From pure bliss to sadness, all of it. As a mama bear this is not something that was easy for me to accept. I remember so vividly, the guilt I felt in my heart as I stared at your newborn face knowing that one day I would no longer be able to protect you. It pained me. It terrified me to my very core. It was at that moment that I realized what it meant to be courageous and strong. Knowing that things may go wrong but letting you live life anyway while slowly letting your grip loosen from my own hand. The ability to surrender my soul to a love so hard that it rattled my entire being, to be vulnerable, to let go when the time comes; that in my opinion, is courage. 

Love,
Your Mama