What I know I want: I know that I want a natural birth. I will be delivering at a hospital with a doctor but I really do not want pitocin or an epidural and I for sure do not want a c-section. At the same time I realize that there are certain situations that can arise in which a c-section can be life saving for mommy and baby. In the case something like that happens, I of course will be all for it.
The reasons I want natural are to be able to breastfeed asap after the baby is born (not possible with a c-section I believe), to be fully present for this experience I've waited for for so long, and I just don't want to put any of that extra junk in my system if I don't need it.
To be completely honest though, there are those moments when I wonder if I will be able to handle the pain of labor and delivery, if I will be strong enough to say "no" to pain meds while I'm in the moment. I've had my doubts about whether or not I can do this and do it naturally. I think this is normal, right? I hope so.
Just as I was starting to have these moments of doubt something awesome happened! Enter netflix. A week or so ago one reader suggested that I watch The Business Of Being Born, a documentary on well, the business behind childbirth in this country. It was empowering. It reminded me of the reasons I want to go natural and encouraged me that I CAN DO THIS. My husband was actually impressed by it (although he protested when I suggested we watch it again the next day, I wonder why). I definitely recommend this documentary for any pregnant mamas out there and even if you're not pregnant, it's very informative.
Well, my appointment is today and once again I will show up with no birth plan. I have spoken openly with my doc about my wishes and she is very supportive but I seriously need to get working on this thing. Any suggestions? Are there any templates out there that I can use? Help!
Oh and HAPPY FRIDAY!!!